Portal
took me decades to arrange sounds
turn my self inside out cut cloth, a scissoring
of time wound down or wooed, to my heart
the grip of it, i swept rational under covers
let me squeeze through window, a gap
wide enough to skin shredding, who could desire
a hungry ghost line:: she shapes a coming, spells
lined the flames i put my finger to the burnt edge
of night & was never afraid of leaving this screen
tell me you feel nothing; you have no concept
i’ve rearranged translations of touch & barter
do you know for sure the dead aren’t living in us
i’m aiming low to hit a broad target, it looks like madness
i’ve unhitched the spiral inside me that codes, i’ve listened too
long to the echo of breaking, none of this matters
as if multiverses bubbled, we replicate infinity
slept inside one another, i was trying to wake, but you
you insisted we stay under suffering, sister, he said join me
& i was ready, i was ready, i was ready & then she said in the dark
unspooling: you can’t sing without a body
i crashed into the mazing constructed to border
monstrosity, my desire to cut to pieces, i can’t control
the rage of centuries marking my sense of time
what does your attachment feel like to another
you will never know who hides where they see
invincible and unbroken, the code of me was jump
through this door i built brick by brick: when i am gone
repeat after me: love is the word we use here
it means: we remember how we are locked into all
i came to sing our design further into the labyrinth
& if you have walked with me, we are already traveling
